Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Being home

I have been home for four months now and everything is just as it was.I went back to work, I saw my friends and nothing has changed - not that I had expected it to. However, I do feel a longing to go back travelling...but I am not sure I would. Hostel Living was OK short term, but could I do it again? I'm not sure. 

My biggest regret is not flying to Fiji but instead wasting 15 days at the end of my trip in Melbourne/Sydney. It's quite a long flight to go just for a holiday so maybe that will tempt me to go back. I also want to visit Bali and I should have done that while I was in Thailand. I am trying to go back, even if just for a holiday, to Thailand to do the Thai Island Hopper East with Contiki but that only runs from April to September which is a bit hard for me next year.

What I have realised is that I hate routine - getting up, going to work, coming home. I miss the spontaneity of travelling and not knowing what the day has ahead for you, but I am not sure what I can do to generate that same feeling.

I also miss meeting new people every day and hearing their stories and I miss the people I met. I knew that the "we will stay in touch and see each other when we are home" would never happen, and normally I am someone who is OK with that and don't actually care about it, but this time I've found it hard. I miss the people I met and spent time with. Maybe because it wasn't a two week holiday in a holiday resort but an adventure of a lifetime.

Travelling has huge financial implications as well, I need to save to buy my own place but I'm torn to go travelling again. It is all so confusing right now, I thought if I left if for a while this confused feeling would go away - but it hasn't.

I thought I would come home and everything would make sense and I would know exactly what I wanted in life, but the complete opposite has happened - I feel more confused than ever. Everyone says travelling is about finding yourself, yet I feel I have sort've lost myself.

If anyone has any tips on how to get over travelling - please let me know in the comments.

Billie xxx